wound

the more i unravel..
the more clearly i see
its obvious now
some thing are not where they should be
i dun noe if i was too gulible
or simply too blind
i might have been stoning the entire time
i hope that is untrue
and there is something still left saving..
dun noe how to put this nicely
but i tell you honestly
the chances are grim
i didnt noe the extent of the damage
up until now
its almost at the point of no return


i'm sorry i have to give you such lousy news..
wait.. i think you deserved it..
i'm not sorry...
you dunnoe it..
the pain is all numbed now..

cry cry cry... sobz sobz sobz...

stop it already... do i have to pick you..!

i wish i could write stuff other those all this sappy crap..
i really tip my hat off to singerers who right aabout the stucff in the world that they are unhappy about..
i wish i could do that too...
but i dun think i can..
no inspiration..
i dun noe.. i dun realli feel for the causes..
well i'm not heartless..
but i dun feel deeply enpough.. that i think i'm good enough to write about it..
no muse...

hmm...

my brain is over loading...
with ideas..
too fast than i can write them..
this is insane..
thats the thing about inspiration
you never can tell when ur muse will show up
thats the thing about life..
its too unexpected..
so why drag someone along for the ride..

sheesh.. there i go again...

"(There's Gotta Be) More To Life" stacie orrico

I've got it all, but I feel so deprived
I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go

[Chorus]
There's gotta be more to life...
Than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me
Cause the more that I'm...
Tripping out thinking there must be more to life
Well there's life, but I'm sure... there's gotta be more
Than wanting more

I've got the time and I'm wasting it slowly
Here in this moment I'm half way out the door
Onto the next thing, I'm searching for something that's missing

[repeat chorus]

i'm wanting more
I'm always waiting on something other than this
Why am I feelin' like there's something I missed.....

get SO irritated.. she never listens to what i say...

why do teenager put themselves through it
to test the ground?
to rebel?
i dun quite understand
how a dear friend can turn aginst be..
and not listen to my advise..
instead take the long dreary road..
instead of the one laid out in front of her..
the simple path
the scenic path..
now i have to accompany her
on her walk through
the dark eary depths of no return..

i'm sorry

to whom my decisions might cause pain..
you might not know it yet..
but i'm really sorry..
things happen
my life has changed
i beg you..
just let me explain...
though if given a chance
i doubt if anything would come off it
you might never speak to me again..
n i completely understand..
you might feel used
and if i were u i'll feel the same..
pls let me explain...

inner fight..

i need to live out my life..
with a smile..
take things as they come..
but tell myself that...
convincing her...
thats just hard...

people never make mistakes
jus bad choices..
so girl..
live with it..
honestly
dunnoe what you are complaining about...

landed on the ground

isn't it..
i dig deep to find the answers
but i'm jus filled with more question..
if left up unanswered..
i doubt i could ever live with myself...
a smile..
a thoughtful gesture..
thats all it takes..
done outta love..
is that so beyond me..
no..

...my love would never die
...forever
...end of time..
...from the bottom of my heart..
...so in love with you
...life without you would be unbearable
...you filled the void in my life

i lye in bed wondering..
wishing i could do something about it
but my action have consequences
and life would never be the same again...

"I Promise" stacie orrico

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

Yeah
And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)
I promise

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise
I promise I will

And I promise (and I promise)
I promise (oh I promise you)
I will be there when you call me (when you call me)
I promise (I promise)
I promise I will

"If I Let You Go" westlife

Day after day
Time passed away
And I just can't get you off my mind
Nobody knows, I hide it inside
I keep on searching but I can't find

The courage to show to letting you know
I've never felt so much love before

And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
How will I know
if I let you go?

Night after night I hear myself say
Why can't this feeling just fade away
There's no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
It's such a shame we're worlds apart

I'm too shy to ask, I'm too proud to lose
But sooner or later I gotta choose
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me? (oh yeah)
How will I know
if I let you go ?

If I let you go ooooh baby
Ooooooooohhhhh

Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
Ooooooooohhhhh

But if I let you go I will never know
What my life would be, holding you close to me
(close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
(oh yeah)
How will I know
(if I let you go?)
But if I let you go I will never know
(oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me?
(oh yeah)
How will I know if I let you go ?

wind picks you off your feet

its no point being miserable all my life..
so when a whirlwind disguised as a salesman came knocking at my door..
i jumped at the chance to spin outta control..
choas.. bliss..
when choices are so beyond me..
i'm part of the bigger picture
but when everything started to be too good to be true..
i woke up to find myself still in bed..
i had never left that bed at all...
now even more sad than ever..
cos i've been to the other side n back.
n the other side is far greener..
but its true
i can't always be living in the clouds..
they are not going to catch me when i fall..
i need to be rooted..
be thankful for what i have..
never wishing for anything more..
as they are far beyond my grasp..

i am speechless...

i always look back...

there can't be enough times that i told you how much i care..
i thought you'll never notice the way i feel but you did
but nothing i do will make you feel the same way i do..
i love you from the bottom of my broken heart..
but all you can muster is a weak, take care
i can't imagine a life without you
but there you are choosing a life without me
what about the hours spent together in deep conversation
don't they count for anything
all those times i thought you were flirting back
i can't believe i was so wrong
wrong about someone i thought i knew so well..

i wish to keep this for forever...

: Friends are people u have faith in and people who have faith in you...do not question your faith...
: sometimes it's not an issue of trust... at times it's an issue of comfort zone - some pple feel odd being around people who know everything about them
: other times, it's an issue of privacy - some people like to keep things to themselves. But altogether, it doens't make them any less a friend.
: whoops, after saying all that, i guess it really is an issue of your own definition of 'friendship'
: Maybe you just wanna noe ur frens more...hmmm maybe u shld ask...if they want to they will tell..haha try asking subtly lah...maybe u scare the ppl ur own frens
<||DrewX||>: here's my 2 cents.. nobody wrote the book on how 2 be a gd friend.. it works different with different pple.. respect who they r & b there.. nobody should ask for more than that.. hope it helps.= )
: you guys are so sweet... thanks for the insight.. THANKS!!! for listening.. for being great friends...

friends are friends forever...

there are ppl that you think you know well..
but some how you just cant noe tham well enough
its strange..
you thot you knew them..
but you always got this nagging feeling
that theres more than meets the eye...
they've got this entire life
that you dun noe about..
some friend i am.
if i dun noe about it..
well ..
i do know them..
but maybe they jus cant trust me enough to tell me the entire story..
to open up..
to share their deepest thoughts..
but what am i to do it they dun tell me..
jus continue being a friend..
supporting them..
guiding them..
be that nag.. that itch..
the party pooper that have to burst that tiny bubble they're in
so by not knowing..
in any way does tht make me a bad friend..
or worst.. does it make me not a friend at all...

just my luck..

was so looking forward to today.. cos i can take those killer stitches off... but guess wat.. not surprising really.. polyclinic is closed today.. so i've got to wait another day... bleah.. the stitches are getting annoying.. i'm walking fine now.. jus have this phobia that the stitches that are goint to split.. so cant wait to take them out.. the bruise is still as big as ever.. so everything is crappy.. but alrite...

happy chinese new year!?

i'm at home waiting for my family to return...
they'll be home soon...
cant quite climb the stairs..
so they left me behind...
thats ok..
i rather it...
dun really feel like moving around...

to everyone..
collect loads of hong bao..
*grinz*
have loads of fun
eat your hearts out..
cant wait to see you all
miss ya..
take care..
n remember..
as you ate that pineapple tart..
that weight means prosperity..
haha...
aniwae..
it taste too good to resist...

i dun noe where this came from.. but had to let it out of my system...

its ok.. jus say it.. i can take it.. u think i cant take the truth.. jus say it.. i know its on the tip of your tongue...i bet if i walk out here you'll sae it.. ur so two-faced.. jus imagine i'm invisible.. sae wat you got to say in front me.. that way you'll get everything off your chest.. n you can stop bitching.. bout me.. bout my friends.. bout the things that i do.. behind my back..so what if i dun do things the way that you do.. so what.. no one's perfect.. unless you are..

when fear is too much

tears roll down her face
the pain doesnt ease
the scars forever
far more than skin deep
this fear you caused
a lasting impression
too much for this child to bear

wrapped in self-embrace
her only solace
in this harsh reality
a warped sense of warmth
her only sense of security
if only she had someone

murmuring humming
rocking back n forth
herself for company
she doesnt want you to come back
but she knows you will, tonight
like every other night

i wanna blog but cant think of anything to blog about...

"Got Me Where You Want Me" BARDOT

Never knew a boy like you
You don't give up
Wouldn't stop at anything to give my love
Told me I was everything your dreaming of

But I thought you weren't my type
Now I believe in love at second sight

[Chorus]
Got me you got me where you want me
I'm yours and nothing's gonna stop me
Got me you got me where you want me
I'm your girl
Got me you got me where you want me
Falling for you, you finally caught me
Got me you got me where you want me
I'm your girl

Wasted time on boys who did not treat me right
I can count on your devotion day and night
Thank god that you finally made me realise

The only one I need
Was standing right there waiting patiently

[Repeat chorus]

Cause when I look into your eyes
Something inside just feels right
I've never loved a love so real so true
And that's all because of you

all of a sudden

has something ever creaped up from under you
been part of uur background that u didnt realise
how important it is to you now
stuff that remind you of it cause you to smilenot jus any smile..
but smile from the inside..
n you come to this sudden realisation..
that oh my gosh..

"All About Loving You" bon jovi

Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me and you
Mistakes you know I've made a few
I took some shots and fell from time to time
Baby, you were there to pull me through
We've been around the block a time or two
I'm gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how we've come this far
The answer's written in my eyes

[Chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

I've lived, I've loved, I've lost, I've paid some dues, baby
We've been to hell and back again
Through it all you're always my best friend
For all the words I didn't say and all the things I didn't do
Tonight I'm gonna find a way

[Chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

You can take this world away
You're everything I am
Just read the lines upon my face
I'm all about lovin' you

[Guitar Solo]

[Chorus:]
Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about lovin' you

All about lovin' you

hey peeps... dun worry bout me..

i'm feeling much better (i'm lying)
IT HURTS!!!
i want it to go away..
against andrew's advice i'm staying away from those PRETTY pills..
i'm gonna "REN"
"tahan"..
"hang in there"
wadeva..
i'm not eating anymore pain killers..
if not my legs are gonna falll off...

contrary to my mother's beliefs..
i think the bruise is growing
its now..
maroon in places..
surrounded by yellow..
and the SIZE of MY HAND!!
freak!!!

thanks everyone for all ur support..
thanks...
this stupid bruise actually plays with you mind..
gives me crazy ideas like i'm better off without the leg..
n crap like that...
yeah...

i need to go change..
my relatives are here liao..
for crap dinner...

if u want to noe bout the accident..

i'm not feeling very well now.. but i wrote how i fell on my clique blog... its the first link.. if u wanna read...

i better get some sleep...

i wanna stay..
only i shall noe why..
but ya my day is super packed tmr..
need to be up at 5.30
to cycle... bleah..
hope i'll be able to manage..

then meeting t21
to go to as far as a JaZz bar..
dun really noe what to expect..
i'm not realy all FOR jaZz..
i really like the style..
that is jus too much to swallow in one sitting...
worst come to worst..
i'll go to the embassy...
but its really very x..!!

SW... wedding planners...

its decided.. we are going to open a biz together...
it'll be so much fun..!!
it will be like council days all over again.. but this time we are gonna get ppaid..
we'll get to be our own bosses...
dun need to get stuck in some silly 9-5 job...
i was wrioting down the stuff we could do...
i'm getting so excited..
though this dream is not going to materialise for anotehr 7-8 years..

it will be so funny...
kenneth - makeup artist
anhong - chef..(on the grounds that he noes all the secrets about making killer burgers.. all thanks to bkl)
ariel - our head waiter.. + bartender
gary n dennis.. - well wedding singers of course
khairi - driver..?! okok.. dun so mean.. mc.. toast master...
jiji - baker!!!
dennis -.. by popular demand, wishes to be a PRIEST!!!

haha...
and the sw.. well we'll be managers..
haha... yea rite..
i dun noe..
i'm jus kidding around...
but i'm serious about the dream..
i'm going to be a wedding planner..

one full week..!!

big achievement... *pat pat*
better than some people i noe..
yea..
but.. i'm earning PEANUTS..!!!
but thats ok rite..
i'm there for the experience...!!
note the sacarsm... bleah...
my friends are working at bars.. cafe.. n earning freaking more...
so i should jus quit the 9-5 job..
n work at a bar..
freak my mother out..
*rub hands together*
i cant wait..

i think i better watch wat i say...

cos.. SOMEBODY.. is going to be reading my blog.. n make me squirm everytime its read aloud... haiz..
n cos.. i suddenly realise that loads of people read this damn thing.. *shocked*
found out that jared reads this too.. my sister.. n god noes how many others.. but yea glad that you all are so interested in wats happening to me... little ol' me.. real boring you noe... but yea.. thanks...

stuff been happening mainly in my head.. mostly along the lines of how to earn BIG BUCKS..!!!
yea.. n stuff about friends.. priorites.. growing up.. how i wanna stay a kid forever... bleah...

yea i do... PETER PAN... i wanna be jus like him...
i shall make him my fav super hero..!!! wahaha...
i'm not jus saying that cos the movie is coming out...
thats a plus..!!
i've always been a fan.. but u noe.. pan was never a hot fav.. so yea...

i shall not digress.. its getting late n i need to work tmr..
bleah its not late.. but i'm tired...
everyone is not online...
either doing homework...
or working at bars...
bleah...

everyone you all take care.. n i'll try to meet up..
ok i wont try.. i will meet. p...

t21.. cya on saturday..
btw.. y are we going to mdm. wongs..
y not the embassy party..??

minsi dear.. i'll cya tmr ..
its still on rite..
28th.. u all better go this sat to the beach..!!!
can wwait to CCC you guys...
n to get a tann...

ij gal..?!
oh i noe why yvonne hasnt come online..
she doesnt noe the web address..
i met her the oher day...
she thought it was some s4 website..
yea.. i'll cya on wed..
i havent spoke to my supervisor..
but it should be ok...
i cant wait...

cya all soon...

deceit

i wanna tell you my
hope, dream n aspirations
but that is easy
i wanna tell you my
secrets, fears n honesty
but i can't
i won't
it tears me up inside
the pain makes my heart ache
and my eyes to tear
i'm so afraid that you would disappear

i dun want to move or even blink
cos its too good to be true
your here to hold me for eternity
i'm afraid that when i tell you
the stories i hold
tucked away inside me
in hopes that i forget
you would suddenly see
all that is ugly inside of me
and in an instant
walk out of my life
sending me into darkness
taking away all that was good and perfect

note: ask daddy how he does it...

i've been working for 3 days now...
and from what i've come up with...
its a total yawner...
most of the time...
i'm jus wondering..
HOW THE FREAKING HELL M I SUPPOSE TO SPEND MY ENTIRE ADULT LIFE ARDIOUSLY DOING WORK FOR PEANUTS...???!!!
god noes how the rest of the entire population does it..
maybe they forgot to brain wash me on my way out of the birth canal..
its times like this...
that i wished
"all you need is love"
instead of the everlasting truth that "money makes the world go round"
bleah bleah bleah...
i think parasites got it easy..
they jus have to feed of something else..
and all of the world's bloodsuckers...
u go guys..
cos you all are bRiLLIaNT..
i wish i could join you...
sad to say i haavent found a host...
CALLING all you blind stupid gullible peeps..
pls let me live off you!!???

i wonder

y am i even writing all my deep thought here.. for the whole world to see.. or is it i wan the whole world to see it.. so that i do not have to bare the heavy burden of telling the world the naked truth.. for truth always hurts.. my way of telling my friends without really telling them.. i hope i don't do that.. but sometimes doing so is inevitable... n thats the thing i cant stand... i cant compromise.. i have to take either side.. guess that why i resisted having a blog in the first place.. the public scrutiny on my private life would eat me from the inside.. plus wat is the point of a diary.. if it isnt your own little corner... i wonder...

falling for joshua... Brian keaney

jus some stuff that i like from the book...

Pain is something that won't be ignored. It goes on like an argument, like a dog barking when you're trying to sleep, like someone digging up the pavement. Pain is when the inside of your cheek is chewed ragged, and you eat an orange. Pain likes to remind you it is there. it makes you touch those sore places on the inside of your cheek with the tip of youe tonguejust to make sure you haven't for gotten all about it.

the trouble with deceit is that it is like a strain. it starts in a small way but soon grows so that the appearance of everything is affected by it.

Wildchild

she is so lucky
she has got you
but what is she doing..
she's not in love with you
she says she might love you
but she loves you not
she is just playing
cos she thinks she's hot


*chrous*
are you simply blind or something
what she got on you
take my advise now
her love is untrue
the headwinds are changing
a leap of fate is due
you got to leave her
this wild child is not for you


your feeling may be true
but she is too blind
cos she's jus too glossy
to realise her find
a man who would treasure
love her to death
too ditzy to realise
that she's really blessed

she wakes up one morning
a one night stand
to find she's alone
she's left to fend
she cries, pouts and hollers
angry at her life
but she still cant see
her mistake her vice

her arrogant ways
her flirtatious glance
that wild child lifestyle
her glossy romance
that has become history
she wants to make ammends
they're no second chances
this ain't some childish fant


** chorus**
well she was slow to realise, weren't she?
now he'd said goodbye
he's taken my advise and
there's the reason why
the headwinds are changing
and he's walked out of her life
he's found someone better
while that wildchild alone at night

confusion

has ther ever been a time you were so confused..
that you jus wanted to take the easy way out..
well that just it n that how i feel..

its like that silly oldie...
"torn between to lovers..
feeling like a fool..
loving both of you is breaking all the rules"

i dunnoe wat is the right thing to do..
n thats what i have friends for..
silly me rite?!
but yeah..
find it hard to talk about it..

its kinda like when your at a job interview with a friend of yours sitting by your side..
you noe ur suppose tp be spontaneous..
and act like you the greatest employee that walked the face of the earth..
but thats jus it..
ur friend is there..
n ur SO self-conscious..
ur afraid of what your friends thinks..
afraid that after you leave that place..
your friend is going to tease ya..
or worst tell all your other friends..n
that you tried to suck up to your potential employer..
i noe its a real crappy reason to not suck up..
but i think it happens more ofte than we noe..
ppl not doing things because of peer pressure..

school of rock

great show.. i'm even more inspired to write songs and to learn the guitar... *grinz*
thanks andrew... i had a blast...

its nice to be sitting around lazing at home...
still in ur pjs at 11.40am..
hahaha..

update...

its been 2 full days of work...
n i must say that things seem to be lookin up
somehow the hours seemed to roll by faster today
though the work can seem monotonous and my shoulders ache
i like it there..
it feel not too bad..
nothing to complain..
they are real patient fun hip peeps...
i dun noe them well
but you can tell they all love it there and are real dedicated..
but noe how to have fun at the same time
it good too that i know people there
like Gary n max..

as for the work i do...
its kinda like things that i do for my mom at home for her biz..
jus this time i get paid
it not a lot of money..
but u noe if i was there for the money... haha
but i'm not
jus for myself... to pass the time..
experience..
n also to prove my mother wrong...
of yeah..
i shall not digress
aniwae... yeah.. i do mostly filing.. stock taking.. n sorting pamphlets
you noe simple stuff..

i'm tired.. i jus found out that i dun hafta work on weekend..
*jump up n down*
i'll cya.. my friends soon...
u all take care

spinning

my mind is a mess...
my head is spinning...
the world seems to be moving under my feet
there are too many thing that plague me
and i want to be freed
i need you to listen
but there is no one there
i want to pour out my soul
but i'm afraid
i want to tell the world how i feel but i dun think anyone cares
they might say they do
but that not enough
your words are empty
i want
i need
i hope
i pray
that i would be freed of this weight on my shoulders
the burden i carry
given the courage to speak my mind
and to face failure and rejection
and the love to open my heart

I wanna see you again

I want you be my side
to fill my loneliness
I want that night to last forever
just you holding me tight
silent bliss
there's no need for words
your touch soothes

I've held you so many times
only to awaken
a harsh reality
that it was all just a dream
who am I to think
that your love will last for eternity
and who was I to believe

no matter how i wish
that night was spawned
out of too much to drink
and your longing
using me to quench your loneliness
I love you all the same
I want to see you again.

Reality show..

Guy A: the sweetest guy on earth. but ultimately she's not in love with him. He cares so much for her. always showering her with love. but she is looking for that spark. u noe. chemistry. and apparently its not there. though he has everything you could ever want in a guy. she's still brooding over someone she cannot have.

Guy B:the best of friends and everyone is just patiently waiting for them to got together. everyone jus assumes it is jus a matter of time. they do everything together. its obvious that there feelings but. none is willing to take the next step. afraid to spoil what they have. even more afraid of commitment. so nothing is ever going to happen.

Guy C:she is so torn. she's never felt so deeply for someone. yet so unsure whether she likes him. she worried its for the wrong reasons. but she doubt that he'll ever know jus how much she cares. she likes him more than she is willing to admit. she feels comfortable around him. its rumoured that he likes her too. but he is surrounded by pretty girls. why would he pick her over all those other girls. she is afraid of rejection.

i'm tuning in to watch who she is gonna pick..

turns out there might be someone else...

Guy D:he has never been on the radar before. but something happened. she had one of those 'moments' and now she realises she likes him more than jus another friend,even more than she is willing to admit to herself. she doesnt want to admit to herself cos she is still so stuck on C, but you cant deny the signs,chemistry,bond that they share. but this may all be one sided.. her sided.. or jus a sorta 'rebound'

"Love Me No More" by:bardot

I toss and turn in bed
Can't get you out of my head
Even though you're so far away
I need you here with me
Oh boy, why can't you see
That I can't live without your love
When I close my eyes
I think of you
Well I wish I had you here with me
But there's nothing I can do, oh oh

Counting every day that goes by
And the tears that I cry (tears that I cry)
You don't wanna love me no more
Wish that you could hold me tonight
I'm hurting inside
Cause you don't wanna love me
Cause you don't wanna love me
Love me no more

I tried to call your phone
But you ain't been at home
I need to find out where you are
So I can make you see
That you belong with me
For me there is no other love
When I close my eyes
I think of you
I wish I had you here with me
But there's nothing I can do, oh oh

All I know is that I can't live without you
Ooh, but I wanna know
What made you feel this way
I'll be right here for you (right here for you)
And everything that you do (thing that you do)
But how can I get close to you
When you don't feel the way I do, ah hah

hmm...

i haven really sat down to think bout my resolution for this year...
but i tink i have them somewhere... in that l'tle 'ead of mine...
been really tired lately.. thot i could come home n blog after yesterdae's meeting for prata..
but nope.. ended up staying there till past 12.. haiz...

aniwae.. gary got me a job..
i start on thurs..
the feeling is bitter sweet...
on one hand i dun wanna be cooped up in an office 8 hours a dae..
but on the otherhand..
something new..!
i jus cant wait..

i'm obsolutely clueless wat i'll be doing...
but gary assured me they are a fun bunch...
taking into account that its gary...
they must be fun...

i still got a couple daes more before i start work...
but i'll be in sch...
helping out at orientation...
hope i wont be too tired

haiz was planning on clubbing
but need to sleep early for first day of work... haha..
too bad..

oh no..

jus realised that i havent been blogger..
well i havent been emotionally on this planet the last couple of daays..
so you all have got to understand...
dun ask me why...
my mind is jus too tired...
oh no.. i'm aging.. haha

aniwae.. i've got lots of thing to sae.. to blog...
esp since its the new year...
i'll tell ya ll bout it soon...
i need to go meet marcus...