The last 2 days is possibly the longest stretch of time I've spend with Andrew. Thanks Baby, Its turning out to be a wonderful christmas.

good morning..

I was talking to jabriel yesterday that i realise that the things that i notice about him and everyone else is things that are starkly the same as in my life. Sometimes even in ways i do not want to be true. Thanks Jab for just hanging out! Talking to him yesterday i couldn't help but be very selfish about the friends i make and the promises I've broken. About how little the effort i make to get to know other people and make the excuse that its really good enough, when there are so many other people that make an effort to keep in touch with me. Don't get me wrong, I don't love them any less just cos i do not contact them. Its just not really in my nature, and that is not an excuse. I'll make a change.

new years are all about change...

thanksgiving

thank you for the little things i take for granted everyday
like the warmth of the sun on my face
and the joy on my mothers face

Thank you for the friends that guide me
the times they cried with me
for the family I choose for myself

Thank you the love you have showered me
for all the time you raised me to higher ground

I love you Lord for blessing me
with health that i may see and walk
upon the wonders you have created

I praise you Lord for creating the ups and downs
that i experience. Without each one I would not be who I am today

I pray that I may have many more times like this to praise and thank you
Thank you for 2005.

This is my christmas prayer

Christmas is here once again, last year I did not sit down to pen down what i wanted for myself. So this year i should... No. I will.


So let hope fill our hearts
Shine the light through the dark
All around the world
And everywhere
I will pray
This Christmas prayer

See I pray that love will rule and reign
And I pray that time will rid the pain of this world
As we learn to trust and care
This is my Christmas
This is my Christmas prayer

Sung by. Bebe Winans



There have been so many thing that have happened over the last 2 years that I feel I have not dealth with sufficiently. i think there must be a better way than my see-saw of emotions. Drew thanks for putting up with my crap. I love you!

I'm really tired from travelling and camps. Just sitting here are typing is really theraputic. I really haven't spent enough time with the girls as i should. My friends come first policy is slowly being washed down the toilet. For the next year i would like to focus my energy beyond my personal sphere and definately outside my comfort zone. I need to find a commitment that i love and stick to it. And just like this year i hope to learn as many new things.

This year has been a bumpy ride. My studies have been somewhat shabby my friendship a little worst for wear, my life surviving and i need to push everything to the next level. Most of the time my reason for not doing so is i lack the energy. But slowly i need to help me crawl out of this hole and onto new ground.