It ain't that bad.. i'll make it through...

hey everyone!! thanks for all your kind words n support.. really appreciate it.. i'm trudging through my work now.. n for some reason it seems so much easier than before...so far i've finished 1 assignment.. phew.. i have a meeting for the other one later.. n shing jus ditched me today.. so i've got the whole day to study.. which i would so much rather spend with shing... she's leaving.... *bawl*... thing is i still need to meet her to get the scarp book... she still has it.. n i wont allow it to be half done.. so after meeting today i'm stomping over to your house.. even though its freaking far away from hall...

as for studying.. was cramming my bio yesterday till 3am.. thank god for the CD-rom.. if not i wont know what to do... i'm a tad worried for soci.. but. i'll keep my fingers crossed...

i'm so over whelmed with work right now to even think straight.. shing guess your right.. i'm in denial about my work.. i honestly do not know how i am gonna make it through this week.. i've got 2 mid terms n 2 assignments due.. and not to mention i've been neglecting my other 2 subjects completely.. haven't been attenting lectures.. for bout 2 weeks already.. i would cry if i get picked this week to hand in my math tutorial.. which i feel unlucky about.. bleah... which will snowball my assignments due this week to 3.. poocrap... not to forget that i also have dance practices.. choir prac... a rovers meeting that clashes with KR's formal dinner.. n a talk by on Mother Mary.. that i really want to go for.. we've got a supper which i have to cross-dress for.. meaning i have to stare at 20 guys in undersized pinafores n hairy legs.. yuck.. lol... then friday.. which i promised SX that i'll go for RCIY.. but i thought it was the 2nd... i think i still can make it.. but i need to be at the airport at 10 to send shing of.. all in all.. i'm not looking forward to the week...

i havent really studied.. i know my material.. but only very superficially.. n i feel like i'm crumbling under the weight of it all.. wat crap...

boo!! i'm really tired... m suppose to go kayaking today.. but told ruby that i'm sick.. which is kinda true.. then went out in the afternoon.. watched resident evil.. with andrew, ken and janice.. real nice peeps i must add.. a tad bit off but still.. great ppl... bleah.. sorry ruby... but i did come home at 1.30am.. cut the girl some slack will ya... then didnt sleep till 3am ish cos i had a real nice long chat with ariel... confession.. i was real close to tears yesterday night.. sorry to put the extra burden on ya ariel...

aniwae.. friday... yup.. went for classes.. failed my first ever theatre studies quiz... 5/20.. real pathetic... but yeah.. oh then off to ice-skate.. mommy doesnt noe i've been skipping classes... then zoom to town to buy stuff for shing SURPRISE!! which btw.. her expression was pricless.. had so much fun jus hanging out.. i'm seriously gonna miss that.. its gonna be fewer n far between when shing is gone... bleah..

my ass is being dragged off to the beach now.. n it looks like its gonna rain....

I am 40% evil.

I could go either way. I have sinned quite a bit but I still have a bit of room for error. My life is a tug of war between good and evil.

Are you evil? find out at Hilowitz.com

I need a new layout...

and i have no idea.. where to begin.. so clueless when it comes to computers.. html.. the works.. zhen says i should marquee that reads..will PAY for nice layout.. help me pls!!! but.. yea.. i've got no money.. and no real reason to change it.. other than it looks ugly.. it has served me well... been doin blog hopping all thanks to the new function on blogger.. n i'm so jealous at all the pretty blogs... bleah.. so jealous..

bogged down by
sorrow, weary shoulders
heavy heart, she
cries without reason
tired eyes,laid down
falling endlessly
suffering through
totality,in her decision
to end her life
a pathetic cry for attention

in her twilight
moment framed
a state of peace
no longer suffering,
no more tears
she leaves behind
nothing, no love
no life,an empty
vessel walking the
world

re-read it.. and memories will come flooding back.. maybe this isn't for real.. too perfect.. too simple.. missing something.. your so caught in the now.. you aren't facing reality.. not once but twice.. and both times your world came crumbling.. keep telling yourself that this time it will be different.. that things are different.. yea right.. your just in denial.. dont you see it girl.. it'll never happen for you.. it not written in the stars..

thats not true.. i dont wan to leave.. this day shall last forever.. stop taunting that i wont make it.. that i'm silly.. n blind.. the way i see it.. you're the fool... for being such a pessimist... its true that i've been hurt.. but that was my fault.. i've learnt from it.

girl if thats what you want.. i'll let you be.. jus know that i'm i'm always here for you.. it might not be what i want.. but i love you.. and i'll support whatever decision you make..

Thanks dear.. i understand you're concern.. i've given much thought.. don't worry about me.. i'll take care of myself..

glimmer

an expense
vastness of water
boundless, glistening,
running through time
cold to the touch
quenches the thristing
dyeing the soul
a turquoise blue

sunlight streaming
through the trees,
wind blowing against
a sun-scorched face.
drowning in a high
spinning with hands outstretched
feet still rooted firmly
a legacy, that lives on

i'm in over my head

too much to do.. too little time..
esp since i joined rovers.. its seem to intrude
into every aspect of my life..
honestly i'm thinking of quitting..
but i dont wanna disappoint all my friends in there..
doubt they'll be very understanding..

school workload has been pretty light..
if not i'm missing something..
my blockmates seem to be crushed
under their piles of work..
got a couple of projects to do..
no biggy.. they're semi-done..

my weekend is freaking busted..
such a doozy..
with block comm elections, cyclohunt recci, mass
on friday.. happening simultaneously..
steph bdae.. which i wont miss for the world..
plus promised to meet matthew..
and andrew..
n the pooey thing is i've got manner painting at 5pm..
n i've got to get the posters done by then..
then sunday.. dance.. cant wait for that..
but kinda means that i will be missing mass..
dont like that..
after that is IBG closing.. so apparently all of us has got to be there...
that leaves me with monday..

i'm not looking forward to it.. crap!!!