If you're free 3 March

Hey everyone, I'll be performing for NUS Dance Synergy on 3 March at
the Univeristy Cultural Centre.

Most of my friends has had no prior training before entering synergy last august.
But we have worked really hard for this.

I'll be performing in 3 of the 10 items.

So we would love if all our family and friends could come and show their support.

Details:

Rough Cuts

3 March Saturday
2.30pm or 7.30pm (last about an hour)
Univeristy Cultural Centre
ticket? Free!!! let me know you are coming and i'll leave ticket under your name at the entrance.


Hope to see you there!!

what was i expecting,
you know I always thell myself that things are going to be different this time
I always hold on to the hope that for once it will turn out differently

but once again i'm dissapointed
for different reasons
at different people
for being the people that they are

I know I'm probably naive
I know that I can choose to hurt
but hurting my own is easier
then leaving it all behind?

i guess its not so much that i've lost
but I've got no bloody guts to let you what I feel
I'm starting to feel frustrated
i think i'll jus stay home today


So today my grandma is over at my house
and because I was suppose to be somewhere at 2
I ate lunch first before they got here
now that they are here and I have no where to go
I've eaten lunch so they didnt leave me a space on the table
and even if they did I wouldnt know what to do
because I feel so sickly full cos I had to stuff my face
if not mom wouldnt be happy that she put in that effort to make lunch especially for me
so now left out of everything
and I hate that feeling

I'm probably making something out of nothing, but thats me
i guess I'm diestined for that life

Get my act together

I sometimes wonder if i'm strong enough to make it on my own, that if I live up to everything I say.
I want to say a resounding yes.

but this year has been crappy
I have nothing to show but 30 hours of television, 15 hours od dance,15 hours of school
no revision, no church,no boyfriend,no friends,no work

that is what i've ben doing
thats it..

i think i'm going sit here until I get my act together
i'm aiming for straight As this semester.

Happy Valentine's Day

I walk the library walkway, the buckets and bouquets of roses,
all that didnt matter, in fact I thought it was quite funny

then I called andrew, even though I knew i shouldnt
like many times before it left me wanting

then the day went on and the day got tiresome
"I'm going home to spend it with my family" i repeatedly said

daddy drove me home and in a wink
I woke up to find myself home

I walked upstairs to my room like i have
everyday after school

on the table was a paper bag
i paused and thought to myself that "thats not mine"

and it hit me all at once
that baby came to drop this off

just like now
my eyes filled up with tears
as I read the card

every pen stroke plotted with love
the gifts insides weren't as important
as the fact that he had me in mind

that he planned it all out
that he gave me a sweet surprise

i know i shouldnt be crying
but I feel precious and loved

and I don't know what to say
thank you for being you

it been a week a long week
and there are so many painful reminders of happier times
there is somuch i need to get done
i'm hurting on the inside
and once again andrew comes to rescue me
even when I pushed him away
I dont know how he could have such a big hug
i must say
i'm the lucky one
then again
why did I leave
i'm not to sure anymore

every week at this time I would call Andrew, not because I'm free or anything.
I guess its because I'm lonely
I never realised that you were probably so tired
and the no. of times I woke you up early so as to fill up my time
I guess you're right
i have been really selfish about it all

So now this is the first real break from lecture without you
n I guess its okay
I'm not going to talk about you this time
because it has nothing to do with you

you have done so much for me
and I really doubt that I could match up

I'm sorry that I always fall short
my explaination falls short
my actions fall short

I know the road has been long and rocky
and I know its caused by me
somehow I am not abled to level my thoughts
the more time passes, the more I feel that I've let myself disappear

no more me, but a reflection of you.
I realised that I want to do what you are
but that means that a little of myself chips away
I know its never your intention
but its all been internalised by I

I look at myself now and i don't like what I see
I know I need to change myself
but i cant while I'm still here.
I'm sorry I'm sorry