MOMO- dancing in the moonlight

butterflies...

my head is throbbing above the sea of skin and writhing bodies, moving to the beats of RnB. I'm searching for a familiar face... i'm standing on the podium, the air still caged by the crowd. I try to enjoy myself but i'm being bumped off. they stare and stare and and i'm numb to whether what i'm feeling is right or wrong.

anhong,ariel, mengheng n i were at MOMO yesterday night.
i met min joeog there... hehe..
n the usual people- JingHong, BM, Faggot.. seems like they all have their rootsin JI.. hmmz..
i saw pamela too...

but this party reminds me of the party at CB way back...
it was a full house.. packed with people with the queue snaking around the building
the only other time that i danced on a platform.. realfun...
but the platform isdamntiny!!

its really surprising that you can tell a person's personality by the questions they ask...
but at least there is still hope for the male gender.

didi! thanks for driving me home!!
ariel..thank you for your money!! i appreciate you for throwing it out the window...

GONE - to the sunny and very remote island of Aur

I'm gone tonight n will be back on Sunday night
don't thnk you would even miss me.

I'm going for my openwater diving course
jus a tad bit edgy cos the nearest decompressionchamber is 4hrs away,
buti think its highly unlikely i would need it
cos i'm only going 18 metres down

cya!! i'll be taking in the and sea n the booze...
Holiday!!

shoe box in my closet...

I think no amount of time is going to help you fanthom the loop I am going to throw you. I thought I made it clear that it was the end, then i get thrown a loop too. And it was as if it never happened and history got conveniently erased. Did you ask me if it was okay? you just showed up at my door and took shelter in my life, who the fuck let you belittle what i took so long to say. It was hard to say it, it was painful to push you away. but it was/is at a point where I am cordial... jus because... hope that will suffice. It not that don't want to talk or that i hate you.. its just that the things you've done to yourself and to me have shattered my trust in you and i just need to deal with that. I broke off our relationship because i have nothing positive to say, apparently kind words don't go a long way in your books. It was not a "primary sch" rash decision on my part to leave when the going gets tough, but OUR problem stems from long ago. You know that I've "changed" ever since WAY back, and let me tell you that it was on purpose. I've been distancing from you ever since, but i do so with much guilt. If you want to know why i distance myself, i am not ashamed- cos if i was i would deny your existance, not introduce you to my friends. but instead wait... first, what is a friend?

i feel a friend is someone who gives you honest feedback, if i sux has the fucking guts to tell me so. someone who listens to my feedback, doesnt necessarily be there 24/7 but want to and would like to be there. Doesn't share the same interest, but a least appreciates thems, and most of all thoroughly enjoys the company all the time.

I am truly sorry, but i haven't been that for you at all and because of that i don't qualify as your friend, have little interest in being your friend and feel you deserve so much better.

I know that you think that life is at it's titter, but i can assure you that you were living in a fish bowl. I'm glad things have blown over that you are getting your life back in order. I thank tha lord that even though there are things that you are unhappy about, that you've accepted them which i know is hard to do. On the whole, this breakthrough is what i'm been hanging around for. And since this chapter has come to a close, i think its time i said good bye.

trina?!

somtimes i wonder what i am doing with my life, whether it is moreimportant to be politically right.
I know the answer to that question and all i want to do is to run to you and tell you all the answer, but i know that would not solve anything at all

i've cried for you, others have to and all i an d do is watch and smile and stay for a while
i've watched you loss grasp of your reflection, hold to your vice
i want to run.

please stop me even though i know you don't approve, no one does not even me, so i guess i have to listen to me...

but i understand where everyone else is coming from
i feel for you

holding on

so close i believe you're holding me now in your hands i belong you never let me go...

It has slipped from my grasp and clings to my skin
it masquerades, stipulated the P&Qs of this event
though i a force smile, they see clear through the cracks
my face gives it away that i can't hide the fact
i don't belong, i can't be strong
i don't believe your words, no more...
no cornerstone to lay my trust upon
i reach out to hold you and you pushed me away
and when i turn around you're tugging me to stay
i watched as you hurt and i hurt to watch
but everytime i tried to help you rather contentedly rot
i don'tknow what to do, its obvious u need not need me
yet i still keep coming back

i think i need to buck up on my studies...
been promising i need to be a nerd...
but i think i shall take it to the next level
and be proactive in learning more than i need...
i'm reading all the stuff but it doesn't seem to be getting in...
must be my yada yada.. wahaha

only woei tang would know what i mean...
anyway.. i havent seem a lot of ppl in a long time...
will be calling ya! so make urselves free!