need to feel you...

i think it was kind of shocking today to hear it twice in a couple of hours, even though not explicitly - that kinda what i got outta it...

but i guess that explains why is it that i feel so distant from everything, its been this way for the longest time. i realise that i've got nothing to share about my relationship with my family, that i'm apolitical, just simply put: impassionate.

i think it was hardto hear, n i do agree its scary that to me, feelings is a matter of choice - i just feel really blaah about everything.... and i guess ur right to assume that there might come a time i might decide to walk away from it all... i'm reeling from shock.

ur very right about everything, i realise that i validate thing by it practicallity, for its logic.

so what is the next step...

akltg- change your belief?!

hmm...

mission

love God with all your heart,
with all your soul,
with all your might.

Love your neighbour,
as you love yourself.

i guess they are right to say that i am afraid, that i have a fragile ego.
i too don't think i can say i examplify him

so what right does that give me to propogate to others.
but i guess what kester says about the 12 apostles are right.
God handpicked (me) them to spread the good news
he didnt picked those who were perfect:
among his flock were the betrayer and the manwho denied him thrice

that to exemplify him i donot need to be at the forefrontof theology,
but i need to exude a passion for life
to be aware
place trust in him and let him do his stuff...

about making that an excuse not to take action, yea. i guess that is/was true.
impose vs.propose.
i think imposing is just wrong, but icando more than propose
and after today i understand that the actions donot have to be big
baby steps...

looking through your eyes

Leann Rimes

I see the Heavens each time that you smile
I hear your heartbeat just go on for miles
And suddenly I know why life is worthwhile
That's what I see through your eyes

It's out of our hands we can't stop what we have begun
And love just took me by surprise
Looking through your eyes


to my baby..
Thanks for a wonderful year, i'm loving every moment

full circle

its great to find out that in this world there are people who share the same values, enjoy the same simple pleasures.

for a long time i thought that i lost it

but yesterday was like a breathe of fresh air, a step back to a time before we all wentour seperate ways. and for a brief moment it was just like we use to be.

i had so much fun yesterday at lunch, dinner all the way to midnight the company is great. it was mad trying to catch up on everyone's life. i haven't seen them in ages.. it was nice...

i'll cya guys again next month
i can't wait

simple is best

i wish i could do more but there doesn't seem like there is much i can do, times are trying but we'll make do. *muack*

it's been a long time since

a crazy, impulsive things happened
I'm walking on air
long rides, late night strolls
rain, shine or fairweather
i might never feel this again
looking out into the night sky
serenity as a gaze into the dazzling night sky
tucked away to be forgotten
are my sorrows, regrets, dissapointments
it's been long time since i felt
deep in conversations
tummy crunching laughs
lost in time
slipping from my grasp
don't want it to be forgotten

bad day - daniel powter

I jolted out of bed by my alarm, I need to find out if I've been allocated my tutorials. I don't want to go to school more than I need: three days is already such a chore. The rain isn't helping at all, it plays a hypnotic lullaby. I need to catch up on my work but the bed is beckoning. Argh, times like this I've got no self-discipline. Breakfast looks simply unappetising, This morning is likemy body took on a life of it own, I'm no longer in control; My eyes are noddingback to sleeps. It gonna be a long day

Away..

I'll be going to m'sia for the weekend

its a work trip

I'll be home on Tuesday at midnight

wish me luck cos I've not taken up
such a HUGE responsibility

now.. this is just a tad scary

this is what the quiz told me.. n man! this is what i'm feeling... right on!

Whether you're working all hours, busy with school, or planning a cross-country move, it sounds like you just don't have time for anyone else in your life...right now, that is. Your timing may be off in other aspects, too. Chances are, you've met that perfect person who just so happens to be planning their own cross-country move. So take a step back for a moment. Is there something underlying this? Could it be you're afraid to get involved for some reason or another, and are therefore attracted to people who are simply unavailable?

Your song: Last Train Home by
LostProphets
You are calm and easy-going. You aren't too shy -
because of this, you have a lot of
acquaintances, and consider a good number of
those your friends. Above all, you are
hopeful, and stay faithful to that which you
truly care for. You seem like the type of
person who could do without love, but wouldn't
mind sharing it with someone.


What rock song best fits your personality? (pics//detailed answers)
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get this....

well sch has offically started and its a breath of fresh air!

i can't wait for my first lecture..
but i might end up regretting what i just said..
but too bad..
i'm going to be a nerd this sem.. by which i mean i need to start studying now!!
i will once i finish this

I hereby solemnly vow that i will study consistenly throughout the semester (1) 05/06 putting in 2 hours of work everday.

hehe.. if that is what it takes

i've gotta over my overworked under nourished stage. i'm looking forward to dance classes and meeting my mentees... m

cheerios

filled to the brim

I am crying inside because now, more than ever i'm afraid and
as i grap at straws in utter darkness. I find nothing. What does tomorrow hold for us. i want it so badly to be a happy ending and yet as the wind sways my decisions and point me in the right direction all i can think about is you. I'm tired, weary i wish to rest on your shoulders but i see nothing past the clouds... eternity? its an awful long time.

filled to the brim

I am crying inside because now, more than ever i'm afraid and
as i grap at straws in utter darkness. I find nothing. What does tomorrow hold for us. i want it so badly to be a happy ending and yet as the wind sways my decisions and point me in the right direction all i can think about is you. I'm tired, weary i wish to rest on your shoulders but i see nothing past the clouds... eternity? its an awful long time.