The highlight of my tuesday???
being able to finish my lunch in 1 sitting
that is.. without being rushed to run an errand or task
PEACE :)

Highlights of my week
walking on the treetop walk, Henderson Bridge and exploring the Horticultural park with KC
Buffeting with Dad and Mom at the Corpthorne
Madagascar with Enen
My parent's 25th Anniversary
and tmr... though its not happened yet... I'm going for a tree top zipline adventure at the Bedok resevoir...

Woohoo.. and I wonder why can't I get my work done on time...
Bleah

With all my soul... I choose..

I loved you even before I knew you
hey.. you knew
yet let me walk by 4 years and counting
watching from afar
never beckoning, just waiting, watching
ever so patiently
all this while trusting that I'll see you,
that I'll eventually smile back

and even when I strayed you were never too far
in fact you were closer to me than ever before
and each morning eagerly anticipating
smiles at the sight as I round the street corner
sometimes people didn't understand why
i'll talk to you, spend your time
you helped me tremendously
especially when I lost my drive

the lowest I ever been
was when I was without you
gone from your watch post, gone from the things I knew
when my routine monotony was raked

Now that I found you, you never left your post
you simply watched me as I inched away
I had to walk the rest of it alone, gosh it was tough...
a long scenic route back to you
But I'm stronger for it. Thanks!
I'm loving it. There's just one thing left.
Its all about trust now.



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I struggle to find the parallels between the things that I strive for, am passionate for.
IMSG had a saga tree that stood gate side and I spent many a time picking saga seeds just taking a breather from the bustle that work brought.. I miss that tree.. Just last week I took a walk to the printer. Its a different direction from the area I walk around AK.. but there simply across the street in full view from our office is a saga tree.. And I couldn't help but smile.

I couple of places that I use to hold very dear had these trees.. and as it just so happens.. during the lows I kept far from these places. These trees are my "happy thoughts"... Yes.. don't mind the fact that they are trees k...

Funny that I should find one at AK.. but I guess its not surprising.. working there has been a blast!

A tree could represent so many things..
to me that tree is life giving, represents strength to trust and possibly a little luck.
It never fails to make me smile :)

dresses. heels. sneakers and baggy jeans

the winds of change has brought it home
a odd, sullen tone
an almost sombre welcome
held breath, smiled obligingly
maybe mandatory and obligatory

can't help but feel a sense of loss
pangs of anger, maybe, possibly despair
waves of loneliness, inked to skin
malt and bubbles to ease the angst

searching for understanding
urges the memories to remain, lost, darkened and locked awry
more so, too stupid to admit
too stubborn to vice, to habit, that succumbed to self consciousness
its too late, though it doesnt matter what townville thinks

it heard, brushed, left to trash
may solace suffice, its loneliness demise
move forward, only forth
not just titter on, but lavish expressions, prance

maybe soon B becomes A


It will only get better, there's hope... forgiveness.

Looking ahead

Footprints in the sand by Leona Lewis

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d08X2lN669k

I know the vid is about the less fortunate. The hungry, homeless and the downthrodden...
listening to it, I identified.
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As I listened to it, tears welled in the corner of my eyes. All this time I figured it was someone else, something that needed to change. I've come to realise it was with me all along. That the last year has been an emotional roller coaster and *pat pat* I did it, managed through the storm all on my own.. well mostly. I'm not only stronger, but capable because of it. Maybe all that did not have to happen to me, but it did. I hurt, and some pains you never quite get over. But hey, it did and though I had a rough start, the tough got going... I got going.

I found the strength to depend on me. to find my way back.. better late than never. this song helped me acknowledge my inner strength. In time of need, that when the people whom you depended on let you down or you're no longer able to turn to, that i've always got me. and thats all right.

lastly, I'll like to dedicate the song to all my friends.. babes, I know that some of you are going through rocky times. I would like to reaffirm my friendship to each of you... that "I promise you, that i'm always there..through and sorrow and despair, ... you'll find my footprints in the sand...". Come hail or high winds, I'll be there to walk with you..


with love,
zhi

Highlights

1. The late night boat ride where the stars lit up the night sky and the fireflies twinkled as we drifted by.
2. Go Karting on Thursday.. Go! Speed Racer... VroOM~~
3. News that Charles might be playing Acid again.
4. Halloween at Zouk, then Bak ku teh for supper with Nic
5. Shopping for the fund raiser with Jun and most importantly being under budget
6. Watching the Wizard of Oz the musical.. getting to see both Pam and Jo in action..
7. Getting a phone call, of course more than oblige.. it too bad that you are miles away

Things are all a matter of perspective.. these are my highlights. It was a good week. *SigGH~~
I am gonna do it, no matter.. as long as it makes me happy. :)