lefty?! righty? - right is wrong and left is right... jus like we discussed

Well Ballanced You scored 68 %Lefty and 75 %Righty!

Congratulations, you have well developed skills in both hemispheres. You see an abundance of ideas and you can easily make plans without getting lost in possibilities. Both the details and the bigger picture are obvious to you. You can relate to almost anyone, and understand their perspective. Undoubtedly you are good at anything you set your mind to. It may also be possible to hypnotise you.

My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 54% on Lefty You scored higher than 65% on Righty You scored higher than 42% on Divergence

Link: The Left or Right Brain Test written by vincex on OkCupid Free Online Dating

ripples

i think i smile too much, laugh too little
jump too soon and love too fervently
depend on rarely, cry much too often
think too much, feel vaguely numb

I play too hard, enjoy too little
study the wrong things, listen to the wrong signs
fall from grace, total disgrace
befriend too easily, priorities in place

wallow in sorrows, drink my dispares
pretend to know, naturally cares
reads to widely, reaches out too few
selfish to others, nothing to give

*rarh - and to thinkigot it all sorted out?! fat fucking hope

my head is spinning so fast... i suddenly decided thati hate everything... andthis isjust one of those days that nothing seems to go right...and everything has itself backwards on and i'm just kinda pissed that no one can keep up. i'm fuckingtired of gamesand i think running isby far the best option. n nowi look forward to nothing.thanks.. its all screwd up now....thanks...i'm tired of fighting...just give me what i want... n get out of my hair... thanks, now bug off

my head is spinning so fast... i suddenly decided thati hate everything... andthis isjust one of those days that nothing seems to go right...and everything has itself backwards on and i'm just kinda pissed that no one can keep up. i'm fuckingtired of gamesand i think running isby far the best option. n nowi look forward to nothing.thanks.. its all screwd up now....thanks...i'm tired of fighting...just give me what i want... n get out of my hair... thanks, now bug off

i finally have a day that i dun have anything to rush me out of the house. i finally get to rant about the things that are going on in my life.

*phew... i'm still really bugged by the fact that i didn't get to spend ANY time with fel while she was back... i think i can guess how she feels... erh.. there is no excuses for neglecting friend. i guess it sucks when i have 3 different places that i haveto divide my attention between...

which also links back to that night at CB, i'm really sorry that i was selfish and my slip up caused you and in turn me so much heartache.but i hope you are feeling better... cos i do.. i learnt a lot that night at the bus stop, whether ur lessons were intentional.. i doubt it but now i know not to poke in others' business.

so from now on no more hanging on toexcess baggage.. i travel light now.. esp ppl who dunreally want to be dragged around.. they should fuck off... if you know who i mean. there is no point hiding it much longer... i don't need everyone to like me. and all that i've done and hang on to might hard for you and you will probably never understand but i can't keep thinking what's best for you if you keep fucking me over. and that is how i feel... have you ever asked me how i feel? i've been very accomadating... maybe its because you are disillusioned that we are sisters or that i'm busy (a cover up for not wanting an emotional connection) maybe i'm a coward fornot telling you this earlier... but we both know that if i leave.. well i cant bear to see what is next...


today is the first in a long time that i am able to stop, and think... and after writing stuff down it all feels a little more organised but i'm still aching from the gym and yoga class with sx...

anhong is right i dun talk about drew much, and sincemy mom knows... and i knows she reads this... guess i'll make an effort to talk about him a little more. although drew would agree that he doesnt like to be talked about it'll be funny to see him squirm... *muack

rovers has been time consuming and honestly i dont think we will remain as friends... i mean we are good friends by NUS standards... n ppl are starting to get what i mean... Jane did.. n i dun think that even counts as friends... i think i should spend more time with the ppl from CSS they have this ease about them... you jus know they don't have an agenda - i think tha tis refreshing... not that rovers have an agenda... but there is hastiness about us all... its like we never stop working and enoy what we are doing...

eejin has a point about waitressing... i want to do it.. i possibly go and find a job at FRIENDS... jus in gardens...but its true.. y do you want a low paying job that makes you "degrad " yourself.. i guess its a matter how you look at it... but i think there is a lot to lear about being at the bottom...

sch is starting...

and a want a whole new me.. with resolutions to study a short term and long term goal... with newpromisesnever to fail to stay strong when the world crumbles... right now everything is just swimming in my head...

okay.. since i'msointo it... imight as well makeit now...
there is no timelike the present is there...

so here goes nothing...

resolutions to be a nerd this sem

to startstudying from day 1
be consistent and on time with assignments
do more than is required
always plan for the week ahead

find a job... in service -waitressing
career": job1 air stedwardess
own a house by 25

SMP
introduce my mentee to a whole new world

need to head off to the gym...
okie for health... drink more water...
excercise regularly.. 2 a week...
sign up for gym? no fucking way!
fix my back by dec!
dec 1st!

i'll be back to extend it..

filled to the brim

camp was okay... well better than okay... i played the most outragest game ever!!
itsa river crossing game.. and if one person made a mistake than we would have to start all over!!
n the team consisted of 100 ppl!

took us 4hrs n 20mins...
went from super lethagic to awake..
the activity ended at 3.30 in the morning!!

wah...

other than that...i'm missing being lazy me...
i just want to clear my head..
i've got so many things happening concurrently
so much so i've been neglecting the things that are impt to me
n it seriously sucks!! something always have to crop up!

can't wait for sch to start...

"You needed me" anna murray

I cried a tear
You wiped it dry
I was confused
You cleared my mind
I sold my soul
You bought it back for me
And held me up and gave me dignity
Somehow you needed me.


You gave me strength
To stand alone again
To face the world
Out on my own again
You put me high upon a pedestal
So high that I could almost see eternity
You needed me
You needed me

And I can't believe it's you I can't believe it's true
I needed you and you were there
And I'll never leave, why should I leave
I'd be a fool
'Cause I've finally found someone who really cares

You held my hand
When it was cold
When I was lost
You took me home
You gave me hope
When I was at the end
And turned my lies
Back into truth again
You even called me friend

fuck over

i've woken each morning with tears in my eyes, i'm confused and terrified because as each moment i inch closer into the unknown. I think its a silly thing to do, but i want to walk it alone. no helmet, no safety net. i think itsonly fair that i push all my loved ones away because i don't need that kind of support. it'll just mean that i'm weak just like everyone else. i don't want that. but right now this seems the logical thing to do. i'm so unhappy now, so this is my paradigm shift.. that everyone should get away from me. that way they will never get hurt, i'll never get tired frustrated and so will they. i simly have no more energy to carry on like i am. and hell no do i want others to follow.. so get the fucking hell lost.!

i hate my life now, at least many aspects of it... i never see my family in the daylight.. the fact i'm home this morning is cos i had to ditch church, lynn's tuition and the CACFOC outing to sentosa... i need the energy for the rovers camp i need to be at 100 %...thats not the point i hate my life.. icant wait for sch to start.. that way everyone would be too busy to care about me.. man that would be fucking great. i count down the days...

CJC SC PARTY TIME!!!

bbq at my place... on the 16th JULY ... just cos i havent seen u guys in a freaking long time...
the juniors n seniors are all invited...!!

i'm ccatering the food so i if you could pay $5 to cover the cost that would be the sweetest...
n if you don't wish to pay, u can forget about being invited again... hehe
pls let me know asap if you can make it...
i'll really love to see you there!

nicole know you have a party to attend... but yea.. this is the only day i'm free really sorry...
jiji! pls ask the other guys.. like yihan whom i haventseen since we graduated.. or maybe once on orchard

juniors i really do hop all of ya can come.. i understand some of the army guys maybe stuck in camp but AWALL n come to the party!!

seniors... i dun think most of ya have been formally introduced to the juniors.. its never too late...


oh..no alcohol will be served, but if you wish to tantalize ur tastebuds, you're welcometo bring your own... hehe!