learning so much
from picking up the pieces
wondering aimlessly
with no where to turn
took the advise
now i'm home

to NS!

my friends are all leaving for ns... sigh...
no more late night suppers
n silly bridge games
where's my FOS newsletters..
no more late night talks
no more hanger-outers
no more crazy stunts
(like that watermelon)
crap will officially
disappear from my vocabulary
but
orh...
i'm gonna miss them

sigh of relief

..
look around..
reminders
picture perfect friends
painful words
broken our bond
pacing
waiting for to hear from you

couldnt believe me eyes this morning
u simply made me smile
jus yesterday
i gave in
loss forever
gonna miss you
ur going away

you were never too far
dun wanna things to change
but sigh
i'm stuck
in the in between
i've got responsibilities now
i'm gonna miss you

scarifice

many promises i have made
daily routines i have to break
i leave behind
my friends, my fears
n close a chapter
of my life
its all worth it
its all worth it
as if my last two years have gone to waste
my friends have all gone

if i have to chose between these two worlds
i want the one i had
cos its forever
i might even do anything to have it back

i've crossed over
a new life
scarifice
its all worth it...

a trophy on the shelf
just one more to his collection
brand new that stands out..
but give it a month or two..
let the glow fade
and it will be as if
nothing ever happened

but for now
its his pride and joy
the first thing he
brings your attention to
as you walk in

he does it just for the kicks
smurk at all the jealous faces

its his baby
he wants the world to know that

Your an Outcast Angel! These angels were once upon
a time, very loved, and of the highest ranks of
all the angels. But, when something terrible
happened in their lives, much like the dark-
angels, the outcats leave the heavens and move
down to earth. Out cats angel are not
nessearily evil. In fact, they are quite kind,
but filled with greif and guilt unimaginable.
Outcast angels are usually formed when they
have failed something, and ridden with guilt,
they are banned out of heaven, sent down to
earth, and live alone. They are always quite
and sad, and rarely contact with humans. If a
huam befriends an outcast angel, they have a
friend for life.


What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
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pls dun be mad no more

i'm sorry you have to see all your hard work
go up in smoke
i know you tried your hardest
put in so much time n effort..
i'm sorry that my one little selfish action
ripped the entire plan to shred..
worst still..
i've made you pick up the pieces
n start over
i know its lonely even when surrounded by friends
n i am never going to understand
how much this baby really meant to you
it not cos i want to see you miserable
i felt its only rite that the truth come out..
i hate lying to everyone..
especially those you are closest..

*tearing at my hair*

...
i cant bear to watch from the sidelines
one moment longer
i've got to do something..
but do what!
help so far away..
n this disaster is way closer to home
i'm left stranded
resucers dun noe what is at stake
i wanna help!!
all they shout
-get back!-
but maybe they are rite
i'm too emotional
to rationalise
n make valued judgement
that i'll be more of a hindrance
than help

the fact of the matter is
i've got friends n loved ones
in there
n its my fault
if i had not...
i should have..
it should have been me
if i could i would trade places..
they must be in so much pain..
will i ever see them again..

nothing i say matters...
you're still gonna feel the same
so wat if i said i didnt care..
does it make yours n my life any easier
certainly doubt it
i telling you the truth..
u noe they sae the truth sets you free
i'm hoping that it does
n i think its working out just fine for me
so let me say my 2 cents worth
no one wants to see anyone sad
u n i are certainly no exceptions..
ok.. fine.. i'm not sorry
take my advice..

i've said this before...

this is my advice...

wipe the tear from your eyes..
its over
nothing left to hold
simply right here waiting
walk away from it all
leave your troubles behind
for anger frustration hurt pity
never made things any better

its late
your up thinking
any more and you'll go crazy
doubts never got you very far
and pride held you back
words we left unspoken
has made this fall through the cracks

reality sets in
a brand new day has dawned
everything is right where you left it
everyday feelings are gone
for you have changed
but the world moves on
like i said its not the end
but the closing of a chapter
one that has left a lasting impression

Faith of the heart

by russell watson

It's been a long road

Gettin from there to here
It's been a long time
But my time is finally here

And I can see my dreams come alive at night
I can touch the sky
And they're not gonna hold me down no more
No they're not gonna change my mind

(Chorus)
'Cause I've got faith of the heart
I'm going where my heart will take me
I've got faith to believe
I can do anything
I've got strength of the soul
No one's going to bend nor break me
I can reach any star
I've got faith
I've got faith
Faith of the heart

selfishness

learnt that today
that too many people get hurt
dun think its fair
i'm to blame
no amount of apologising
will ease your pain
i chose my happiness over yours
you have every rite to hate me
please dun hurt yourself no more
i'm sorry i cant be there
the way you've always been there for me
i really wish there was an easy way
a happily everafter
guess its not meant to be
i'm in love with another
love is selfish

turning 19..

woah...
wat a night
i admit that
the order of events are kinda screwed up..
n all that booze is still in my system..
some things were just real hazy...
hey... but you only 19 once rite..
i laughed cried smiled hurt
wat a way to begin..
man.. i'm not touching that stuff for some time..

guys i'm home... relieved.. contented...

hey i'm home... came home yesterday afternoon...
time since then has been going like a whirlwind... so many thing done...
well lets see..
i got my hair cut..
then by some twist went to pick darius from gardens
he n lynn were planning to meet for din but ended up at my place..
with a bunch of his pals
bummed the entire nite..
between that ariel came over to make the cute vodka watermelon..
haha... for everyone's curiousity..
the vodka level has only fallen LESS THAN 1 CM...
i dun noe wat we are going to do tonight..
i really cant wait for tonight..
there are so many reasons y..
but its aslo going to be a trying nite..
i'll see how the nite goes... bleah..

well that was quite a lot of things for half a day dun ya think...
yea.. as for my holiday..
wat do u wanna noe.. i jus shopped..
didnt go sight seeing..
if there is any highlights... it was shopping..
haha... second being taking the sky train..
it was a cheap thrill...
they use those magnetic strip cards we use to use
u noe the ones b4 the EZ links...
yea...
me n my mom had a blast...
i think i wanna go on hols jus with her...
forget about those family holidays..
i think i better go prepare for tonight...
cya..

ON VACATION!!

gone from
13th - 19th
to bangkok...
will be home soon
don't miss me...

to all cj councilors... 28th, 29th, cac!!

invites to a gathering!!!

20th march
pls come over for dinner
6.00pm saturday...
anywae.. if u wannaa come earlier about 4
pls do...
n if you decide to come at about four or earlier..
pls bring an extra set of CLOTHES...
ur SWIM WEAR..
n if you do have... water guns!!!
i think its high time we took a dip in the jacuzzi!!!

everyone pleaase SPREAD the word..
i miss you all dreadfully...
need to see all of you again before we lose contact..
or go our seperate ways.. sigh...

*warning* there will be ALCOHOL...
so be prepared..

and an invitation for anyone who wants to STAY OVER...
but please give me fair warning if you wanna stay over..

"For All Time"

soluna

You've been the first in my life
Who has ever made me feel this way
And I will not deny
I'm gonna need you right here
By my side

Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(by holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(until the day I hear you say)

[CHORUS]
You are mine
There's no other one for me
Keep in mind
You make my life complete
And tonight
We'll make love endlessly
Cuz you're mine
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time

Now that you're here, boy
I'm never gonna let you go
Can I touch you there, oh
Do you mind if we kiss real slow
You're my everything
You're my hopes and dreams
Baby, you know it ain't no lie
I'm gonna be with you till the day I die

Baby, I can wait
(come and hold my hand and let me lead the way)
Let me take your breathe away
(holdin' and kissin' and lovin' and touchin' you)
Never will be too late
(see myself through your eyes)
Baby, I can wait
(no no, til the day I hear you say)

[CHORUS]

You're the one that lights my fire
You're the one that keeps me strong
You're the one that I depend on
When my world is goin' wrong
You're the one that I hold closer
You're the man I'm dreaming of
And I really really love you
I just want you to know that

[CHORUS 2X]

I can't wait till the day
I hear you say
You're the one that I need
You're the one that I'll keep
For all time

att: buddies...ice-skating tmr??

!!!
how about
meet 11 at mrt jurong
(the one for the iceskating ring)
then go for lunch... can decide where later...

skate then after that watch movie... n if u all are up to it... maybe eat dinner..??

how does that sound...??

euphoria

its too good to be true
havent felt like this in the longest time
i think words do pack a punch
the day jus flew by
the rain didnt dampen my spirits
though it does provoke thought
its funny how something like this
can make everything right with the world
it make my anger melt away..
and wills me to forgive
if i had only known earlier..
it would have been perfect
not that it isnt rite now..

take control

i've made wrong judgements, and screwed up
said too many things that i didint mean
i wish to apologise, but the damage has been done
so unsure of myself, and dragging everyone down
being selfish wasnt my intent
but this ugly side of me beared its face

i wish to change
please forgive me
was wrong and gone astray
now i've come back to start over
to take control of my life



hey... this sounds quite nice
could make it into a song

spashing in puddles

"How Did I Fall In Love With You?"

backstreet boys

Remember when, we never needed each other
The best of friends like
Sister and Brother
We understood, we'd never be,
Alone

Those days are gone, and I want so much
The night is long and I need your touch
Don't know what to say
I never meant to feel this way
Don't want to be
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

I hear your voice
And I start to tremble
Brings back the child that, I resemble

I cannot pretend, that we can still be friends
Don't want to be,
Alone tonight

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

[Bridge:]
Oh I want to say this right
And it has to be tonight
Just need you to know, oh yeah

I don't want to live this life
I don't want to say goodbye
With you I wanna spend
The rest of my life

[chorus:]
What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
What did I say, what did you do?
How did I fall in love with you?

What can I do, to make you mine
Falling so hard so fast this time
Everything's changed, we never knew

How did I fall,
in love ,
with you?

turning back

...
if i could relive yesterday
i would
many regret
too many words left unsaid

if i could relive yesterday
i would follow my heart
dig deep within my soul
and let it be my guide

if i could relive yesterday
decisions i'll undo
not dwell on the past
and bbe true to myself

if i could relive yesterday
i'll swallow my pride
and speak my mind
take failure and rejection in my stride

if i could relive yesterday
changes i want to undo
but it will be like any other day
mistakes remade, life goes on

A levels..

BCD A2
cured ur curiousity?? well i did poorly...
as compared to..
all the A* students
its slightly lower than whet i expected..
but i'll take it!!
cos i can imagine much worst
bit sore about math..
but surprised bout GP..
i'm satisfied...
thats all that matter rite?

haha... wish that this were true...

...
hold my hand
wipe the tears from your eyes
i'll never let go
trust me
i'll never hurt you

i'll hold you close
so close your dreary eyes
sleep until you dream
i'll watch over you
shelter you from harm

lie with me
under the stars
i'll keep you warm
share your worries n aspiration
n be by your side forever

think of me
cos i'm missing you
my life is yours alone
i'm so in love
nothing else matters

should i?

feeling unsure
n hoping that
this would make it go away..
no way
but i really want to do this
ha!
keep dreaming gal
but the days are long
n the nights lonely
cant help but feel that way
its call happening tmr..

i'm falling for the guy next door

I've only noticed him
a week
he can't be more than
a couple years older
walked by his place
while he was washing his mustang
now everytime i walk pass
i steal a glance

don't noe his name
but he has the kindest face
a nice bod
and deep soulful eyes
i bummed into him
yesterday
on the street corner
our eyes met
and i felt an instant connection... sigh

to think i didnt believe
in love
I'm falling
for the guy next door

cant write nothing to write bout..
nervous i guess...
cant wait for the dooms day to be over...

feel a bit lost at the moment..
these results are going to define
the rest of m life
hell i'm screwed..