Ready to fall..... meredith edwards

I get a feeling
I can't explain
Whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
And I lose all space and time
And now that we're standing face to face
Somethin' tells me
It's gonna be okay

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby
I'll try
Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

I know you've been watching
Choosin' your moment
I've been dreaming of that day
No one before you has gotten to me this way
And now that we're standing face to face
There's something that I need to say

And I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby
I'll try
Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Nothing is certain, this I know
Wherever we're headed I'm ready to go
I can't promise forever but baby
I'll try
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Yes, I'm ready to fall in love tonight

Is there something wrong with me
Is there something wrong with the way i see
I see the world from inside upside out
maybe thats why no one understands
the way I understand.
familiar, yet so alone

help me underatand
the way I see
help me understand
where I went wrong
this world, this love
empty no more

is there something so beyond me
haunting my thought, my life
left hanging

enamae

Darkness, fear
inescapable sorrow
silently anticipating
viciously preying
weakening hold
timeless memories
slipping away
anger, disappointment
anguish, regret
kneel to pry
silence, stillness
waiting, searching
lost, forlorn
reminisce, move on
lay down
loose control
in the end
forever.

varsity life...

its been a week of school.. i've moved into hall.. the com isnt there yet.. but when it does.. i'll def have morre time to blog.. i realise at home i'm really spoilt for choice as to what i should do.. unlike in hall.. it can so dead boring at times.. but overall the ppl in hall are great and the activities are a blast.. As for sch.. i realise that i picked my classes without thinking that i'll be alone for most of them.. that didnt even cross my mind at least till i started sch... everyone seems to be studying what their friend is studying.. so weird.. well.. haha.. i'm having a blast for the first time studying what i want to study.. a funny combination.. but i've throughly enjoyed it so far.. this sem i'm taking.. sociology, english language, theatre studies, math and a module on genes

the funny thing is that i've never slept as much as i have in the last week.. as i have on any other week.. its great that i'm staying in hall.. esp without a PC yet.. there isnt much else to do... so i've been reading a lot.. n sleeping... lol.. uni has been really impersonal.. well.. i'll have to wait till tutorials start... but there seem to be plenty of ppl that i know in every lecture.. ain't the same though...

"Hold On" good charlotte

This world

This world is cold

But you don't

You don't have to go

You're feeling sad, you're feeling lonely, and no one seems to care

You're mother's gone and your father hits you

This pain you cannot bear

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Your days

You say they're way too long

And your nights

You can't sleep at all

Hold on

And you're not sure what you're waiting for, but you don't want to no more

And you're not sure what you're looking for, but you don't want to no more

But we all bleed the same way as you do

And we all have the same things to go through

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer

Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on

What are you looking for?

What are you waiting for?

Do you know what you're doing to me?

Go ahead...

What are you waiting for?

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Don't stop looking, you're one step closer

Don't stop searching, it's not over

Hold on if you feel like letting go

Hold on it gets better than you know

Hold on

buried fears

A moment's weakness
shed a tear
a painful reminder
of buried fears
a time, a tale
to reminisce
a need, a want
for total bliss

A scarifice
too burdened to bear
a chance to open up
to share
a girl too clouded
in feeling, in thought
a dying wish
but too distraught

A fighting chance
to end her suffering
a heart wrenching act
and turn away
a vow not to return
though hope is present
a heavy heart
longing to whole

A painful reminder
flows through her veins
black poison
creeps into her soul
a blinding light
choke back tears
no where to hide
buried fears

butterfly kisses

I've gazed into your eyes a thousand times before.. I've held your hand and kissed your cheek.. and each time I hold you close... i secretly wish.. you would embrace me as you own.. but you've show no willingness to open your soul.. it hurts me.. that you shown me nothing after all this time.. i was helpless lost and unsure.. it hurts me.. that you've shunned me.. locked your feelings away.. now i blame you for all the turmoil i feel inside.. i know not love.. or how to love.. i know neither what i want.. nor who to trust..

well.. its commented that i blog less.. thats true.. i have been blogging fewer and farther between.. hmm.. no particular reason y.. just been having a real hectic time.. been around.. meeting friends.. having fun.. getting ready for uni.. and bleeah stuff like that..

well.. update update.. sch starts next week.. n for those nuts who dont noe where i'm goin.. its ARTs NUS.. n i'll be staying at Kent Ridge Hall.. bit sad that i missed their orientation... no worries..

everything else.. well nuthin much happening.. i've been meeting up with friends i've met fromt the various camps that i've been for over june..

oh.. i jus went wakeboarding on sunday.. real cool... i'm proud to say i'm actually not too bad at it... lol...

i dont think i have much else to report on..or much more i'm williing to share outright..
so back to my old.. weird.. nonsensical blog entries...