hey there

i've been home for the last20 hours..
n gosh has it flown by quickly..
i'll be off to camp again tmr
this time to CAC (cultural act. club)
foc- freshman orientation camp
i'll ba back fri...
so dont miss me...

well the last week has been hectic..
phew that its over...
i especially am never going to forget orion..
it was certainly an eventful 3 days..
esp since we were all to a bad start.. with cybils injury..
then the episode with si hong..
hope the chap is doing alright...
not forgetting the other members of course..
pam, edwina, jayne, eunice
they really showed the bigger dudes
whose the man!!! haha... i mean woman..
for you gals who read this..
colin was whining about it.. you guys won!!
great job...!!

then there were the zephers..
my first sec 4 team..
thought it was gonna be easy..
walk in the park..
but there were a quiet bunch..
thank you for opening up to me as well as the rest of the group
the true you(s) have shone..!
great job..!
to you guys (garry, clment, eric, chistine, mel, shuwen)
i'll cya all on the 4th
take care
all the best in your future endeavours...

pages of my past

and to think i knew
we had, and through
i'm sorry to fade
friendships we've made
things i shared
times you listened
people dont change
but empty words
empty thoughts
both souls left array
no second guessing
it didnt please you
my sweet baby
its all worth it
leaving behind
the way it all ends
thank you
i now know the truth
for yours is the kingdom of heaven

no purpose

my eyes are closing
it can't be done
there isnt anything wrong
with it
i hate you
these cruel thought flow

energy zapping me
strengh none
fuck
the reasons
ain't all that logical
ain't that great no more

leave me alone
leave me be
turn away
as i shed a tear
my ugliness will empower
my anger will engulf

take me away from here
cause me to damage
kick the character
burnt the soul
ashes to ashes
dust to dust

loss in its intensity
blinding my purpose
i start to tear
lips bleeding
nervous enticipation
as it draws closer
it draws me in
a power that binds
surrendering control
a begin to weep
a calmness falls
giving me the strength to push on
to believe once again

i came with the sole purpose
to rekindle my faith
but i've recieved much more
lord i offer my life to you
thank you for calling me to your side
reaching out to me
touching my heart
thank you for for teaching me
that selflessness without joy
is life without purpose
that it's alright to have wants andexpectations
that spiritualityabd normacy
does share common ground
thank you for sharing
that humility
is a key part of service
not just the motion of continually giving
butgiving what i have
within my human limitations
and allowing god's will be done

her droning
above the engine roar
nagging her children to wear sunscreen
the sun scorching her spirit
fussing over every miniscule affair
soaring over the turquoise sea
the waves splashing against her side
as i gaze out into the horizon
the christine waters
and its serenity
overwhelmes me
all my anger
blown by the salty breeze
whisking pass into the cloudless sky

wow... i havent blogged in ages...

haha... hi! everyone... ben busy as you've seen...
since the last time i blogged...
i've beed to TIOMAN... (2-5 june)
that was cool...
got burnt!!
but the water it damn chio...

after that camp back... (5 jun)
had a bbq... which was quite funny...
ended up with so much food ...
n iwas worried that there wasnt any...

then had work.. IAG camp(7-10)
that was tiring,... but enriching
mouses was so fun to work with
i'm sorry for letting you all down...

went to amara... (11-14 jun)
that was relaxing..
loved the swimming pool..
also managed to help at sk2..

then went to chalet (14-16)
lynn's bdae...
our once a year gathering..
haha didnt get drunk phew..

i was traveling back n forth from these two places...

lastly...went for css nus FOC (15-18)
btw!!! i got in! i got in! into nus ARTS!!! yeh for me!
it was a special 4 days...
went for confession..
made lots of new friends..
met lots of old friends..

jus came home yesterday...
i'm tired i slept 12 hours yesterday...

n i'm starting work tmr.. bleah...

i'm leaving on a jetplane...

i'm away.. be back the day of the party.. saturday
anything you can leave msg here...

i walked into the corridor
there he was standing in the doorway
the sunlight was streaming through
outlining his silouette
though his features couldnt be seen
you could let he was glad to
be here and share this moment