crossroads

i want so badly to hold on and for everything to end. I've thought through is in 100 ways and each time i take a step left. I cant decided if everything is worth risking, worth scarificing mainly because it isn't. but there are some things you need to do. I can't bear to bring it upon myself and more so upon my baby. So what if i Love, like he says its not enough. I'm pushing and all i see is emptiness.