i think this a recurring theme that keeps rsurfacing up.. A circular life that I lead, after thinking that I put it behind me it reappears a different time and place and yet the same messages, same thematic. Though the characters are all replaced...

i wish it weren't such. I wish there were simple answers. but yet I know that nothing is suppose to come easy. Yet I grumble that it shouldn't have to be THIS complicated. I am never going to run far enough from invested interest and pre-concieved notion.

I want this to stop happenning to me... after I get through this. No more. I have proven myself strong through adversity. I must commit...