I have been making so many excuses to not go to church. To distance myself from god. I really need to stop sabotaging myself.

with all that is happening,
there is need to put my trust in you
and with each passing day
I look up and get reminded that you are truly AWESOME
grant me the strength to do what's right
to focus on what is good and beautiful in this imperfect world
and love fervently, without hesitation and filters
I want so badly to have that close relationship with you
I am so sorry for keeping away

Love always,
Trina