right now i'm wondering if i'll ever amount to anything, cos i don't think i amount for much. sure you can say other wise. but i've go no hobbies, i don't know where I spend my time. I've just retreated into this buble, I'm a loner, a sham a smart ass know it all.

my exams are 4 days away, I've barely skimmed the surface of my material, I feel like crap.

thats that.

i think i'm very confused, very lost, broken

i'm feeling jaded, not amused
forlorn and somewhat abused
abused by what? I'm not sure myself
just that sometimes I say I hate even though
I know I love, i wished everything I want to know will
omosize into my head, but I fell stupid stupid stupid
just let me curl up and die, watch the clouds roll by

all i want is someone to support me
someone to stop and stay awhile
i want to study, but nothing is getting in
I want to be smart, but my CAP score will never allow it

no points for my sorry ass, no smiles
i have nothing left
i might seem I do, but that is all shit
I feel far from everything
maybe I'm living on the edge
the edge of oblivion
where everything is whithered, sparse and/or dead
i feel like i'm sucked dry

i feel happy, but temporary happy
i feel pleasure, but it also so empty
i have left, my useless life