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under the cover, in the pretense of fatigue
I lie await, awake
its like no time has passed
and yet it truly has been a moment of eternity
every breath blowing in and out of consciousness
I lied... I'm tired

the monotony of waking
and snoozing upteened time
i finally make it out alive
only to meet with crowds and sounds
greeted with drear
it the commute of up life
the story to be penned
the etching of my mark on economy
as quickly as I begun
I intend to leave
it has tasted me
and chewed on with its might
might leave

I wonder why I cry sometimes
the type of cries that last only a sneeze
yet heard for miles
maybe I'm naize
this world not all I had built it up to be
but yet again..
how can my mental construct
be so far from the truth
i ponder instead of pod
and reflect what is wrong
I pray that its him and not me
I am not as weak as I have proven to be

there are no words exchanged
a hug
its an evening walking
right in the wrong direction
talking about the world coming to an end
and you smile
in my world there are no words exchange
a kiss
warming my toes as they prance around the room
its not the right time
I just ate, a meal of pie and mushrooms
there is so much music
yet in my world there are no words exchanged

lose the words that complicate my world
toss them and shred them
because they hurt me
crumple them and bash them
because that is all they are deserving
cry over them because they are so hard to give up
yet in all that no words are exchange
there is no more reason to exchange them
they are worthless

It been a long time and even though I'm fucking tired i decided it high time that I blog. I need to vent, I need to rant. There is no better time like now and its by far too short to waste it on vegetating in front of the tele...

Afterall its monday and there is nothing on TV anyway.

I am hopeful for the next month..
I know you must think that I'm a bit bipolar... to think that I am positively glee after writing all that jaber above. but you know what?! I don't give a fuck.

Welcome in!