what a way to start the new year....
I don't know whether to call it loading or unloading.

Yes, Its like everything you wish for coming true all at once. At first you smile and nod, maybe sigh a little. Then you begin to understand how too much good things is a bad thing. I use to think that you must try everything before you can decide if its good or bad for you. I now know that was a bunch of bullshit that has come full circle to bite me in the ass. I am hurling myself in all directions because no one will lead the way. No one trust themselves enough to lead me.. Lead myself you ask? I'm fuck up.