funny how...

i managed to stay single for so long...
seriously..
i think the easiest way to get out of a situation is to get attached..
i mean when it concerns guys lah..
but who wants to be a chicken and take the easy way out

i sometimes wish i could.. haha..
and its really funny..
maybe its jus me
or i'm real paranoid.. again...
but somehow everyone seems to get the wrong impression of me

ppl who meet me for the first time never believe that i've never had a boyfriend
and friends that known me for sometime.. well they just think think that i've been in one too many bad relationships.. therefore dun date..
and there are those who jus think i'm too tomboy.. they noe who they are..
n even after growing my long hair back... i'm still not girlie enough...
others are even funnier.. they take it that i'm dating whoever i'm hanging out with...
i guess many ppl do that.. sometimes even i do..
well there's worst.. bombastic..
sae i'm closet lesbian.. haha..
they can go sae what they want..

i'm sick n tired of playing games..
meeting guys..
only to find out that
they've got intentions to being ur friend
try to be friendly..
they take it as leading them on..
n its jus painful for me to be nasty..
aniwae.. who likes rejecting ppl...
though it might be better than being rejected...

fel.. if ur reading this.. pls stop keeping me in the dark..
i really want to noe wat u noe..

(added later)
ok.. thanks for shedding light..
u were right i knew it all along