confrontation

it finally happened..
it did! it did..
i.. we told mom..
erm i was screaming sobbing
the works..
i finally found the oppotunity to let it all loose on my mom...
n boy did she not take it well..
at all..
but she managed to find the power
to suck it in..
n for once listen..
about how i feel..
how much i hate her.. sometimes..
about the predicaments she puts me through..
about how unfair this family sometimes..
most the time..
is to me.. just her..
about how mei feels..
about how i loath the way she
treats herself as the victim..
n that.. "oh so its my fault"..
wallow in my sorrow..
get pissed..
lash it out at me.. the maid.. tim..
n for the next forever.. annoys us by doing the exact opposite..
in some meek attempt to seek our acceptance..

that we think.. she NEVER understands
that she's a control freak..
n she's fucking always right..
n that no matter what..
we still will eventually end up having those stupid n useless
FAMILY meetings
that end up in some screaming session..
n crying session
n then we hafta hug.. kis kis.. make up..

she'll drag us each into her room..
give us the "i love you the most" speech..
n get all huggie.. with me and ask for my forgiveness...
fuck shit..!

there was no solution.. but at least i put it out on the table..