Shouldn't be mentioing this after so long.. but it just keeps popping up.. so i guess i need to come clean..

Sorry. It doesn't quite cut it.. but i truly am.. for all the hurt i've caused. I have moved on with my life and i feel terrible that i have left you behind. i am lost as how to breach it to you. i will not deny that our relationship has been strained n i'm extremely lost as to how to act around you. What i do know however, is that you have been and will be an important part of my life.

I am truly blessed to have a friend like you who pushes me to be the best that i can be even when i am an unwilling participant. It through your encouragement i was able to pull through JC. I am indebted to you.

I sometimes blame myself for what you might be feeling: pain and solitude. I know i shouldn't but i cant help myself. I pray for things to be different. I pray for it to be simple again. I pray for the old days.. as much as i wish to hold on.. i must now chose to let go..

there are so many things i wish to say, far too private for this blog.. i do wish i'll get the oppotunity to tell you.. and not only that for you to tell me.. stop keeping it inside..

its hard to explain what we have/had.. its more than friendship.. n far from love.. or isit now? i shouldnt even be contemplating this.. afterall. i've found someone new... argh i dont know.. i want you to know that.. i am very happy where i am right now.. and that though its hard to listen.. my wish for you is to move on.. find someone special.. i dont think drowning yourself i work counts...

we'll still be friends...