no tolerance..

you should have seen me yesterday
in that sorry state..
how embarressing that you had to see
a pale and sicken me
i've been feeling so for days
that was the real? me

this morning came along with
a throbbing i have yet felt
my head screaming
the shame i've done
unto me the cruelest
of thought eating at
gnawing through my weak heart

so last night was to let loose?
i guess so a million answers
brimming to caress my lips..
is it not enough that i miss and want
am powerless in this

i heard something yesterday
so it got me thinking..
so why? there are better
rich rich richer..
y stay needy..
when you can be free...

n according to some ppl i dont make sense..
well.. i'll like to stay this way..

let's just say.. i'm running outta time..
n get back to this later..

what fills my days are thots of you
its strange.. i dream you're back in my arms
i said life would be unbearable
but it just feels really numb..
i'm afraid.. just one more day..