does it

there are times when i think it matters
other times when i couldnt care
does that make me hypocritical?
i want it so badly
i long for it
but sometimes i believe
that its beyond my grasp
how would something so marvellous
belong to me
it would be a dream come true
but fat chance

i once dreamt that i had it
a vivid dream
that it consumed me
filled my days with endless pleasure
but my dream has since long faded
a distant memory

there were many times that i got my hopes up
because there was a slight chance
hopes up for nothing
like i said it is unlikely to happen
jus need the rite opportunity to come by..