I spoke to Sherman.. and we bantered about it and has been extremely encouraging, my eternal optimist :) , Andrew coaxed for a different answer and by the time Cheryl asked for details.. I replied it happened like lightning speed.

nobody said it would easy, no one ever said it would be this hard.



toss and turn at thoughts of you and you.
dreams of cuddles and long toasty campfire side conversations
and I've finally put a face to the happy anticipations, figments, notions
only to find that they only make me furrow and fear
when my heartstrings tug and social convention pulls
and all that keeps me going are thoughts and time with you
in my mind and around me everything is shifting and I hold still
eyes closed, arms around. *holding my breath*

sleep eludes me, from stress and other things
and now that the week is winding down I'm glad that I do too.
I pray for sleep this night