honesty

...
to say what i truly feel
would be indescribable
to say what i truly feel
would be disaster
i fear what others think
to face my feelings
in denial and unaware

to say what i feel
would mean the end
to say what i feel
would leave me exposed
my insecurites against the world
peeling away skin
unmasking my flaws

to say what i
want would be unimaginable
to say what i
need would be selfish
serving expecting nothing
is my reality
my dreams beyond reach

to say i
love, would be a lie
to say i
live, is untrue
for i knoe not love
nor lust
my purpose still unclear...