i'm ill

yup.. caught the flu and a really lousy cough

haha.. but i'll survive..
been on a mental vacation..
probable the reason that i
havent been blogging...
this week was nice n quiet..
i like!! *grinz* :x
haha.. i miss all the people i talk to every night..
the nights been kinda empty
thank god i dont have to work..
its getting to me
i wont deny that i'm really nervous about not
receiving anything from the unis..
but honestly.. i think my parents are taking it worst than i am..
the week has been rather confusing..
i dont know what to think..

i've been ssifting through all my old letters, journals
came across so many that
speak about now..
about things that i shouldnt do..
warnings to myself..
which i didnt take heed..
and that i've made..

today i told someone something..
i cant believe i said it..
i dont regret...
it never happened..
but tooday..
he asked..
if there was one thing i want...
wat is it?
my reply was to turn back the last 4 months..
my gosh..
yup.. but thats what i want..
wont happen..
but yea.. if i could..
i've done too many things wrong..
everything that was wrong..
came back this year to haunt me...